Why?

Why am I writing a blog? Over the last few years, with the help of some dear friends, I am going through a physical and mental metamorphosis.


I've always had the potential to be obese. I was a chubby baby, a chubby child. Really, most of my life I have been chubby. From like age 13-20 I was a normal weight.

Then I got pregnant, and despite all my efforts, I packed on 50lbs. Thus began my struggle of the last 18 years to NOT be fat. I joined weight watchers and curves, and GAINED 30lbs...turns out I was borderline diabetic. A quick 2 months on a low carb diet fixed that, but also got me pregnant for the third time!

During all my struggles with weight, I had a few demons I was battling. My oldest son has high functioning autism, and anger control issues, and I myself was diagnosed with clinical depression in the early 90s. For the most part I am OK without medication, but I do have the tendency to self medicate with my favorite drug, chocolate.

Over the next few posts, I'll give you the cliff notes of my journey so far.